Monday, January 28, 2008

For whom the glass breaks

“I hope the new emergency block will be utilized to the maximum extent for the upliftment of public health. The new block has been built at the cost of 87 crores. It is not just a betterment of the services offered by the hospital but also an architectural land mark. Glassware imported from abroad has been generously used to give the hospital an international look…” spoke the superintendent of a certain hospital, on the occasion of the inauguration of the new emergency block. This was more than a year ago.

If one were to walk the corridors of the hospital, one would wonder if there was a war that happened in the past few months.

A few days ago, at about seven in the evening, a man rushed into the ER carrying a frail looking man in his arms. He dropped him on the table and went outside to register the patient’s name in the computer (yes we have a computerized records section)

There was one more person who told that the sick man had thrown convulsions and collapsed. On examination, the patient was found to be dead. So the death was declared. When the man who had gone to register, came back, he was furious. He shouted allegations at the doctors for not being able to save the patient and went to the extent of threatening to kill the one who had declared the death. When he got no reaction from the people around, in full filmy ishtyle, he tore the hospital registration card and threw it on the floor. He then stormed out of the building and crash…he smashed the glass doors at the entrance.

This is not a singular episode. The war scene appearance of the emergency block is because of many such episodes. Every glass pane which is broken has a story to tell. Like this one…

A middle aged man suffered a stroke one morning. He was taken to a local nursing home from where he was taken to NIMHANS. NIMHANS did the necessary investigations (CT and stuff) wrote the treatment and promptly referred the patient to our hospital. The patient was severely anaemic. Plus he was hypertensive and not conscious. The patient was admitted and all the necessary feeding tubes and catheter were inserted and treatment started. His son, a great alcoholic brain has fed the patient with coffee and some eatables through mouth when there is a nasogastric tube in situ just for that purpose. The result - the man aspirated and choked and died. The doctor told the son the reason for death. In full feeling, he tugged at the swivel door, that it just sung out rapidly and the glass broke. If that wasn’t enough, he tried fixing the door back by banging it so hard that it just came out of the frame. Till this day the door with broken glass stands beside the entrance to the ward waiting to be fixed.

There are more instances. A rowdy, died on the operating table. He had been brutally stabbed. He died when efforts were being made to revive him. In anger, friends from his gang came around and smashed every glass window they could set their eyes on.

Another patient who had acute psychosis, couldn’t be handled by four ward boys and four able bodied family members; he went ahead and smashed all the remaining glass windows at the entrance.

If the glass panes have suffered so much, consider the kind the risk conditions one is forced to work in.

Many times doctors have been assaulted for no wrong of theirs.

So, if one of these days you don’t hear from the Stygian Sailor, pray for him. The last will and testament will be published posthumously.



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Listening to: Muse - Supermassive Black Hole
via FoxyTunes

Saturday, January 19, 2008

gollum's song

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Sleep or the lack of it

It is mid afternoon. It seems brighter than usual; though I am wearing tinted glasses. Haven’t slept well in days, haven’t really had the time. When I have time, sleep evades me. Sleeping pills don’t help much. Litres and litres of caffeine have passed through my oesophagus, ending up in my stomach making it an acid hell. Cigarettes burn holes on my already destroyed lungs.

I sway and drift to my bike in the parking lot. My parched lips thirst for water. The sleep deficit of the past days is taking its toll. People say I am mad. I am inclined to believe it. Only, I have experienced insanity of a different kind. My work demands 36 to 48 hours of my time at one go. This is at the hospital. I chose to work here.

I am lucky to be getting off early, its just 36 hours without a wink of sleep. The only breaks- dinner, lunch and toilet matters and of course coffee.

Night shifts and their continuations into the next day, in the hospital are indeed exhausting.

I switch on my bike. Legs kick the start lever. The next thing I realise I am already half way through to my house. How did it happen? Did I sleep for that distance?

The slightest twist on the speed throttle seems to increase my speed hundred fold, everything around me is a blur.

I feel I am Spiderman. The objects around me are moving slowly. Or maybe I am moving too fast. It is deathly silent barring the occasional loud honk of a passing vehicle.

Hunger strikes and sleep is its accomplice. A cute chick on an ACTIVA fleets past; no response.

Suddenly I feel my hands grip on the break. Screech and stop. Red signal. I can hear a policeman’s whistle somewhere in the distance. I shake myself. I was drifting into the realm of sleep.

It is green again and I am on the go.

In twelve hours, I will be riding back, to those who have placed their faith in me. They believe my knowledge can save them from their ailments, from death

They don’t realise I am just another human being who has learnt something about diseases and treatments. I can’t cure. I can just try to do so with the best possible efforts. I am not god. I don’t believe he exists.

I don't feel like sleeping. I will just read "questionable content".

It is a fairly entertaining comic strip. read it here if you want to .. read it from the beginning.

I can see the blue sky.

The kites are flying high, looking for prey.



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Listening to: Iron Maiden - These Colours Don't Run
via FoxyTunes

Monday, January 07, 2008

Biscuit

A mother enters her daughter's bedroom and sees a letter on the wall over the bed.
With the worst premonition, she reads it, with trembling hands:"It is with great regret and sorrow that I'm telling you that I eloped
with my new boyfriend. I found real passion and he is so nice, with all his piercing and tattoos and his big motorcycle. But is not only that Mom, I'm pregnant and Ahmed said that we will very happy in his trailer in the woods. He wants to have
many more children with me and that's one of my dreams. I've learned that marijuana
doesn't hurt anyone and he'll be growing it for us and his friends, who are providing us with all the cocaine and ecstasy we may want. In the meantime, we'll pray for the science to
find the AIDS cure, for Ahmed to get better, he deserves it. Don't worry Mom, I'm 15 years old now
and I know how to take care of myself. Someday I'll visit for you to know your grandchildren.
Your daughter,
Judith
PS:
Mom, it's not true. I'm at the neighbor's house. I just wanted to show you that there are worst this in life than my report card that's in the desk drawer. "

Saturday, January 05, 2008

2008; a quest begins

It is dark from where I come. It is always like this around here. Then there is a flicker; a blue evanescent flash. As the year has begun, there is a talk of the quest; A long and hazardous search for the mythical box of Pandora. Some things are best left untouched. But the world needs what the box has to offer. HOPE.

The box has surely been opened for there is much evil in this world, but the hope is yet to escape. It can still be caught, in time.

To find hope not just for these dark lands, but for the people who seek shelter; and also for me, an unfathomable distance in time needs to be traveled.

I feed on hunger and the starvation lends courage.

Respects to the high priest of insanity, at the shrine of madness.

Simple are the things which complicate life.

The brethren begin their song

Yo, ho, haul together,
hoist the colors high.

Heave ho,
thieves and beggars,
never shall we die.

The king and his men
stole the queen from her bed
and bound her in her Bones.
The seas be ours
and by the powers
where we will we'll roam.

Yo, ho, haul together,
hoist the colors high.
Heave ho, thieves and beggars,
never shall we die.

Braving icy cold winds, the sails are unfurled, the Grey ship is ready to cruise through untold waters of this metaphysical world, in the ultimate quest

HOPE.

My material hopes

  • Pleasure, to find it in abundance
  • Music
  • Travel, I am already setting out
  • Madness
  • Happiness
  • Love
  • Knowledge



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Listening to: Enya - Water Voices (Help You Sleep)
via FoxyTunes